Through out my 28 years on this planet I've worked a lot of jobs,most of them retail. Most of them garbage and very inconvenient and less than sympathetic/caring to my special case. Working is hard for me, I can't stand for long periods of time...I need to use the bathroom like right fucking now or have frequent doctor's appointments. It becomes a problem for most employers to deal with me and on one hand I don't blame them but at the same time I can't help it. This is the life I live and while disability is helpful it will never allow me to live a normal functioning life. This past week I made the decision to leave my job of 3 years( only really worked for maybe 1 1/2 though). I realized that the only jobs I'm really qualified to do are the jobs that readily available but are like Kryptonite for my well-being. To the people who may be saying "Well Alissa, are you sure you're not just lazy?" I will say a big fuck you respectfully, until you live a day or two in my body you don't know anything unless you actually have Crohn's, fibro etc etc. I would give a lot to be able to do a normal life, work a normal soul-crushing job, have a too expensive too small apartment. I would love it. Just to have job security would be amazing. So now I find myself once again jobless and wondering how I'm going to pay my bills because they very much exist. What do I do? Right now I really don't know but to say I'm not worried would be a lie. I'm extremely worried. If I ever needed the universe to come through for me it would be now. So universe, if you're reading this please give me a win because I really need it right now. My skills are writing and generally being awesome/charming and plenty humble. Thanks. Please check out my newest review over at ComicBuzz P.S I'm on a diet and this is life now but I actually am enjoying it. I didn't give up soda though....cry about it.
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It's been 4 days since my last blog. At first it wasn't intentional, I just happened to get home too late and forgot to write. Then I thought to myself maybe a blog everyday is too much? I'm thinking of keeping it to a few a week so you guys don't get sick of me. Honestly, not too much has happened in the past 4 days. I did some grocery shopping, went to the movies to see X-Men Apocalypse and went out to do some pop hunting. I'm trying to limit my spending so I can finish paying off my Disney trip. The best way for me to do this is by not going anywhere because as soon as I do I spend money.
I've been addicted to shopping for probably ever. When it's down to the wire and counts I can save money but man is it so hard to do. I just love buying stuff. When I'm sad or not feeling good because I'm sick or whatever the case may be, I buy myself something. And guess what? I feel better. It's an addiction as valid as any other and it honestly doesn't bother me. I can't stand people who think they know better about how I should live my life. A house and mortgage and all of that might be right for some people but that's not the life I want to live. I value experiences really more than anything. I'd rather travel and just figure it out later. And that might not be for everyone and that's ok, I won't force my lifestyle on others and they shouldn't do the same to me. As long as I have money to pay my bills then I'm all set. Lately I've had another addiction and it's been watching YouTube vlogs. We've(Aaron and I) been watching videos on YouTube since it launched basically but I never really got into watching people's vlogs until recently. There's some pretty cool content being created. I really like a few specific channels including TheTimTracker and TheDailyWoo. They're both daily vloggers so they've been uploading content everyday for more than 4 years which is amazing. The dedication that these people have to what they're doing is incredible. I've already shown that I couldn't write a blog for more than 4 days in a row. It's cool to be able to pull up basically anything you want on YouTube and find people who are just trying to put some positivity into the world. For some reason the spell check is trying to tell me that positivity is not a word. Ok then blog. Let me know if any of you have any kind of addictions in your life in the comments below! Currently watching: Scream the tv series Here's a picture of my feet from the other day when I got a pedicure. I hope I don't know anyone with a foot fetish. Feet are gross. |
AuthorA closer to 30 than 25 female living with chronic illness. I've got an obsessive love for cats, Disney, video games and cats. My name is Alissa. Archives
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