Through out my 28 years on this planet I've worked a lot of jobs,most of them retail. Most of them garbage and very inconvenient and less than sympathetic/caring to my special case. Working is hard for me, I can't stand for long periods of time...I need to use the bathroom like right fucking now or have frequent doctor's appointments. It becomes a problem for most employers to deal with me and on one hand I don't blame them but at the same time I can't help it. This is the life I live and while disability is helpful it will never allow me to live a normal functioning life. This past week I made the decision to leave my job of 3 years( only really worked for maybe 1 1/2 though). I realized that the only jobs I'm really qualified to do are the jobs that readily available but are like Kryptonite for my well-being. To the people who may be saying "Well Alissa, are you sure you're not just lazy?" I will say a big fuck you respectfully, until you live a day or two in my body you don't know anything unless you actually have Crohn's, fibro etc etc. I would give a lot to be able to do a normal life, work a normal soul-crushing job, have a too expensive too small apartment. I would love it. Just to have job security would be amazing. So now I find myself once again jobless and wondering how I'm going to pay my bills because they very much exist. What do I do? Right now I really don't know but to say I'm not worried would be a lie. I'm extremely worried. If I ever needed the universe to come through for me it would be now. So universe, if you're reading this please give me a win because I really need it right now. My skills are writing and generally being awesome/charming and plenty humble. Thanks. Please check out my newest review over at ComicBuzz P.S I'm on a diet and this is life now but I actually am enjoying it. I didn't give up soda though....cry about it.
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AuthorA closer to 30 than 25 female living with chronic illness. I've got an obsessive love for cats, Disney, video games and cats. My name is Alissa. Archives
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