""We chase the melodies that seem to find us until they're finished songs and start to play when senseless acts of tragedy remind us that nothing here is promised, not one day. This show is proof that history remembers. We live through times when hate and fear seem stronger. We rise and fall, and light from dying embers, remembrances that hope and love last longer and love is love is love is love is love is love is love is love cannot be killed or swept aside. As sacred as a symphony Eliza tells her story. Now fill the world with music, love and pride."-Lin Manuel-Miranda's Tony acceptance speech June 12th 2016.
I had been putting off writing a blog the past couple days because I felt my emotions were too strong in any one direction for me to say anything that could help to make sense of the events of the past few days. The problem with that is my emotions regarding the shooting at the Pulse nightclub will never subside enough and we'll probably never make sense of this. I've become too cynical regarding the state of this world, thinking that maybe we can never get back that feeling of safety. Maybe we've never been safe. I honestly don't know anymore and I'd be a liar if I said I didn't feel scared and sad and just utterly heartbroken. Then I realize that no matter what I say it will never bring back those 49 people who lost their lives. It will never take away the trauma that 53 others will feel for the rest of their days. Last night as I read news stories about some of the people that never made it out of the club I couldn't help but just sit here and cry. They were tears for the deceased, tears for the shattered families and tears for the amount of hate that people feel towards each other for being different in this country. I don't think I can express enough how damn sad it is. We're all different and that's what makes us great. The ability to feel love is an amazing thing and I really don't think it should matter who we're feeling it for. If you're lucky enough to get it then hold onto it and don't let fear mongering tactics scare you away from being who you are. I'm an ally of the LGBTQ community and an ally to love in general. I think if more people would embrace love we can possibly make it through this. The last thing I want to say is that I know I use this blog to write about the hardships I face through illness but last night with tears streaming down my face thinking about how those people will never be able to even worry about being sick I felt grateful to be alive. Grateful to be able to worry about such things, to see my family everyday and hug my cat. Make sure that you always tell the people you care about how you feel and make the most of every day and remember love wins. If you want to help please visit oneorlando.org Any donations would be helpful.
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AuthorA closer to 30 than 25 female living with chronic illness. I've got an obsessive love for cats, Disney, video games and cats. My name is Alissa. Archives
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